Some Poetry and Thoughts

from various sources

It May Be the Last Time
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute or two
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything right.
There will always be another day
to say our "I love you's,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do's?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me,"
"Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.
- author unknown
submitted by CT

Dabbling in Extroversion
Twirling, spinning
Stars circle overhead
above high ceilings
Sound, light, rhythmically pulsing
Palms pressed together
Shifting, swaying
Sparkling, glittery purple dress
Golden curls dancing on shoulders
Time stops for awhile
- Brett T Warden
© 1999

Half Alone
I sit alone
Wondering where I fit
I am outcast by choice
Not wanting to be part of the world
It seems there are so few here
Am I the only one?
Are there any others?
Will I share this journey with someone else?
I feel alone
But I know I'm not
You're here and I feel your presence if I try
But do you have a match for me?
- Brett T Warden
© 1999

A Letter to My Future Wife
Watching, waiting, searching for you. I know not when our paths might cross, or whether they have already. All I know is that I love you.
Wherever you are, I hope you are not afraid of who you are. You are your own person, and your likes and dislikes, hopes and dreams, your personality; these are all a part of you alone. I want to be a part of that, not someone whose personality masks yours. You are special to me just the way you are, and nothing will change that.
My ongoing fear is of being too forward or driving you away. I never want to risk hurting you. Because of this, initially I may seem distant or cold. I only hope you can see how much I really do love you. I crave human contact as much as you, but I am afraid to make the first move. Never be afraid to touch me, or to ask me for anything, for I will always be there for you.
I need to feel accepted by you especially, because the world tells me I am not normal. I think differently, I spend my time differently. I do not socialize freely or try to meet some status quo. I live my life and don't interfere with others. I do not venture into the world on my own. I need support. I also need to feel that I am being supportive. I will go where you go and do what you do, as long as we are together.
I have studied marriage for several years now, and I am beginning to understand what it means. Marriage is the ultimate committment between two people, an agreement to stay together as long as life permits, no matter what happens. Marriage is about unity in body, mind, and spirit; there is no longer a concept of two individuals. The desires of each partner melt into the desires of the couple. Only this attitude will produce a permanent marriage. I will not marry until I can pledge everything to you. I will love you unconditionally, as per Christ's example. We will support each other, fulfilling each others needs without condition. We will think of each other as different parts of the same body, letting nothing create an emotional chasm between us.
I have always and will always love you, though we have yet to find each other. Keep searching, and I will do the same.
-- Brett T Warden
© 2000

In her stomach,
On my mind
Warm fuzzies crawling
Down my spine
To say we're perfect
Would be deceit
But together,
We are complete
All I have;
Some grainy pictures
And a million words
I've traded with her
Between us lie
So many miles
And so we wait to see
If on us God smiles
She knows my heart,
I know hers
All because of
Those precious words
I want to be with her
Whatever it takes
But we must be sure
This is no mistake
A ray of sunlight,
A snow white dove
A constant reminder
Of God's love
My heart is hers
And hers is mine
Got that Butterfly
On my mind.
-- Brett T Warden
© 2000

I've Learned
I've learned-
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned-
that it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.
I've learned-
that you should always leave loved ones
with loving words. It may be the last
time you see them.
I've learned-
that you can keep going
long after you can't.
I've learned-
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.
I've learned-
that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.
I've learned-
that regardless of how hot and
steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had
better be something else to take
its place.
I've learned-
that heroes are the people
who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.
I've learned-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I've learned-
that my best friend and I can do anything
or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned-
that sometimes the people you expect
to kick you when you're down
will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned-
that sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me
the right to be cruel.
I've learned-
that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I've learned-
that just because someone doesn't love
you the way you want them to doesn't
mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned-
that maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them
and less to do with how many
birthdays you've celebrated.
I've learned-
that your family won't always be
there for you. It may seem funny,
but people you aren't related to
can take care of you and love you
and teach you to trust people again.
Families aren't biological.
I've learned-
that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every
once in a while and you must forgive
them for that.
I've learned-
that it isn't always enough to be
forgiven by others. Sometimes you
have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned-
that no matter how bad your heart is broken
the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned-
that our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned-
that just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned-
that we don't have to change friends
if we understand that friends change.
I've learned-
that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a
secret. It could change your life
I've learned-
that two people can look at the exact
same thing and see something totally
I've learned-
that your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned-
that even when you think you have no more
to give, when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.
I've learned-
that credentials on the wall
do not make you a decent human being.
I've learned-
that the people you care about most in life
are taken from you too soon.
Author unknown
submitted by DSF

A Letter to My Future Wife -- continued
With every day that passes, I become more certain that Danielle is the one to whom I wrote this letter so many months ago. We wouldn't have this relationship if we didn't believe that God wills us to be together. I pray daily that we will succumb to His will. I also pray that His will includes our marriage.
Danielle, I love you very much, and I mean everything I wrote before, except the "keep searching" part. You came into my life when I stopped searching, and I'll never search again. Even if we learn that we're not supposed to be together, I know now that we must trust in God. When we allow Him to take care of us, He will. When we stop trying to do everything ourselves, He takes over, in His infinite perfection. Matthew 6:25, my love.
More than ever, I believe that each of us is who God has been preparing for the other. I aspire to become a perfect Christian husband, always loving you, growing closer to God with you, for the rest of our lives. I love you, no matter what.
-- Brett T Warden
© 2000

A Letter to My Future Wife -- the engagement
Many months have passed since I wrote the letter to my future wife, and now that I know it's you, Danielle, there's even more to say.
Over the last 14 months or so, we've grown from complete strangers, to best friends, to soulmates. With our approaching wedding, we will become one, no longer two individuals. We will walk together through everything, hand in hand, side by side. We are embarking on a new journey together, and with God, as husband and wife.
There will be happy times, and sad times, but through everything, we will celebrate, and we will cry, always in each other's arms. I love you with everything I am, and I promise to spend the rest of my life with you, and only you, my best friend, my soulmate, my other half, my true love, my one and only.
Through all the rough times, I promise to stay with you, holding your hand, and holding you, just as I'll always rejoice with you in happy times. Through everything I will stay with you, because I love you, and I need you.
-- Brett T Warden
© 2001